Rest assured.

Bed bath and book= a big day.

I have been thinking a lot about the final two posts for suitablycool. I would like to go out with a bang; write about some really cool adventures, gorgeous crafts, mind blowing recipes and throw around some new ideas brimming with possibility. And yet, here I am back in bed at 12:58pm on a rainy Tuesday afternoon barely able to keep my eyes open.

Watch laundry dry while reading outside- check.

The truth is for the last couple of weeks the bulk of my life has consisted of reading, sleeping, watching Freaks and Geeks and having baths.  Not very adventurous, except perhaps in one way: this is potentially the first time in my life where I have actually stopped. Really stopped.

After a busy May, I promised myself that June was going to be a month of rest before the baby came. Note: I say things like this all the time and then somehow manage to fill up my days and nights with projects.

Watch herbs grow- check.

But surprisingly June has been a real rest month. I would like to say this is because I have undergone some kind of spiritual evolution, but it’s truthfully because I just don’t have the energy. My body has decided to call the shots and for the first time in my life, I am slowing down. There is no gas in the tank.

Eat cookies- check.

At first, it made me really anxious. Beyond work, I had tasks to cross off lists, emails to answer, cards to mail, projects to start and baby things to prep!  But in the last few weeks, the anxiety has subsided and that nagging feeling of “I should be doing something right now” pops up less and less.

For the first time in my life I am ok with letting a day slip by into the night without accounting for how much I accomplished in that 24-hour period. Maybe this letting go, is the ultimate preparation for becoming a parent?  I think I will ponder this as I crawl under my duvet.

See you next week.

A little note: thanks to everyone for so much amazing support through the last 9 months: the thoughtful advice, the friendships, sweet emails, offers of help, surprise backyard dinners, “unshower” bbqs, picnics in parks, the passing on of clothes and baby things, endless enthusiasm, love, support and laughter. This kid is so lucky to be surrounded by the most amazing group of people!